... and without you I don't know what I'd do, I can never, ever live a day without you, do you see, You're all I need!

I just came back from a fun movie night/weekend at Ruben's ... His parents were gone so we thought we could party a lil bit at his place. Neither his mom nor his dad will ever know that we stayed there over night haha ... yeah, we are bad kids lol

We watched a movie called " Hard Candy", because my friends hadn't seen it ...

It's about this 14 year old smart, charming teenage girl - Hayley, who wants to hook up with a 30-something fashion photographer, she met online ...
Turns out Hayley isn’t as innocent as she looks after all.
In fact, she has a lot on her mind. At one point she is actually about to castrate this guy ...

The story is kinda sick, yeah, and somewhat painful for boys to watch I figured lol, but still an on-the-edge-of-your-seat psychotic thriller!!! I liked that it is just 2 actors through the whole thing. Very Sweet movie, like candy haha (oh yeah, I am funny, believe it or not) =P

We also watched a bunch of other movies, but those weren't by far as good as "Hard Candy".

Anyways, I talked to Trevor shortly after I came home. *yay* That was very nice although it was only for like 10 minutes, because it's around 4:30ish in the USA now. It's crazy how much I miss that guy! ... He is still all I can really think of ... if I am not busy procrastinating my homework haha - which I am doing right now by the way.

Like usual I am loaded, I gotta do some reading for German and Ethics, and therefore I need to also make a drawing of Platon's way to think about the human being ... umm, I have like pages of Math homework (and I have absolutely NO clue what's going on in math right now so it will literally take forever! hehe) ... yeah, that's actually about it. I know, it doesn't sound much, but it is!!! Oh my god ...
Sometimes I wonder what the point is, in having so much homework every day that under the week all you do is going to school, come home, eat lunch at 4 PM(!) and start doing homework and studying untill you go to bed. No time for a real life anymore
And it's kinda the same over the weekend. The only difference is that I procrastinate all my homework untill sunday so that I can at least have a life on friday and saturday ... so getting up, eat some breakfast - lunch type of thing (aka brunch) and homework is basically all I do on a sunday ... then I go to bed and have school the next day ... oh what a bliss! I miss going to school in Monte or the U.S. *tear* You guys have sports and all there ... You don't know how lucky you are! Trust me ...

But I won't complain haha, just 2 years left, that's not to bad I started looking at different Colleges to see what possibilities there are and to eventually figure out what I want to study someday. I just want to make up my mind I guess ... I also started reading a book about that kinda thing. Yup yup ...

Me and Ruben were talking about starting to play tennis ... Great idea lol, 2 peoblems: We don't know how to play AND it's friggin expensive to learn how to play and to rent a court and all ... so we won't ever play I guess. Oh well, shit happens, don't have time anyways I spose ...

One of the few things, that always makes me happy, no matter what's going on, is the thought of Trevor ♥ and when I talk to him ... it's weird.
There is this one song I listened to a lot lately. (Avril Lavigne - "I will be") It's a great song ... listening to it always makes me feel so much better about how things are at the moment. It's like a therapy ... lol, cause at the moment, everythings seems to kinda break down on me ... I don't know what's wrong ... it's just that I am really unhappy with my situation right now ...

So when you are done reading this, leave a comment or something please. I'd appreciate it a lot!!! Just tell me whatcha think, k?!

THANKS!!!

Love you all sooo much! ♥ ♥ ♥